“Gratitude is the music of the heart, when its chords are swept by the breeze of kindness. – Author Unknown”
Oh how humbling it is, to feel you know something and then find out that you hadn’t really the first clue. I have recently had a lesson in gratefulness that I am ever thankful for.
Oh I thought I had it all figured out. The key to happiness is gratitude. I would tell anyone that wanted to know this special secret. Yep, I had the key. I knew what it took. You just needed to practice gratitude. I would do this, sit and think about all of the things that I was grateful for. I would think about the things that were important to me, the love of family and friends, roof over my head, and the food on my table.
But did I feel it in my heart? Did I really experience true gratitude? At times absolutely the answer was a resounding yes. When I wasn’t intellectualizing the feeling but actually feeling it in my heart. Those special moments were you heart just wells up with joy. The moment you get married, the days that your children are born. You know those special moments that simply grab your heart.
But when I sat and actually tried to feel gratitude for all that I had, I have to admit it felt hollow. In meditation, I would think about all the things that I was grateful for, and when my heart couldn’t really grasp what my mind was thinking, I would plaster a smile on my face. Perhaps this would help me actually feel it in my heart. Not so much, but I thought I was doing it right, really feeling my gratitude.
And as luck would have it, I woke up. I have recently been blessed with starting a new job where I actually get to experience pure gratitude. It is the most amazing feeling.
I get to be the front face of an organization that helps to empower women. Many of these women have been through more than I can even fathom. Their stories humble me to my core. I also get to interact with multitudes of volunteers, who give of their time and efforts with complete and total love and abandon. I am humbled to be in their presence on a day to day basis.
And I have had the honor of experiencing “pure gratitude”. When the women leave our organization, you can see the gratitude in their eyes. You can hear it in their voices, and best of all you can feel it in their hearts and your own when they embrace you, express their gratitude for all that you have done. You feel gratitude to them in return for what they have taught you, and what they have allowed you to experience.
And you realize that you have been provided the honor of being just one small cog in the wheel that has helped another. That you were blessed with being the one that received the thanks, felt the gratitude and love. But that you were just one small component of a group connected to the higher good. And you felt gratitude in return for each person that helped to make this possible. You felt humbled that they allowed you the honor of feeling the gratitude firsthand. And you felt immense love and compassion for each and every one of them. Everyone that made this possible.
And you understood that it is hard to feel gratitude alone. That gratitude is felt when everyone conspires to make something special happen.
And now when I think about gratitude for all that I have, I can recognize all that went into the simplest of things. That the food on my table was actually the work of many interconnected people focused on producing this blessing for me. And now when I sit to think about the things that I am grateful for, I can feel every one of them in my heart.
Wishing you Pure Gratitude